Where Did May Go?

Weird. I could have sworn it was just the first week of May and now well...now it's June already. I see that I actually still have people coming by here on a daily/weekly basis. I imagine you have all been bored outta your ever-lovin' minds with the whole "no new post" thing. I also imagine a few people have zapped me from their bookmarked blogs. I know I would have by now. Sheeesh.

As it turns out - keeping up with two blogs on top of everything else in my life is a lot. A pipe dream, some might say.... and I might be one of them. :)

I have to say that the lack of sunshine has made life feel gloomy and downright "wintery". I feel like this has been the longest winter EVER! It's June and I am still sending my son off to school in a winter coat. Call me weird but I don't recall that we had so many dark, gloomy and depressing days in May and June of years gone by. I've heard some folks disagree but I'm here to tell you that my outlook sucks and I totally blame the weather.

I keep trying to tell myself that the sunshine is just waiting for my son to be out of school for the summer and then it will show itself. You know - since it wouldn't be nice for his sister and I to be out playing in the kiddie pool while he is sweating away inside a non-air conditioned school. The weather is merely being polite, right? Yeah - I'm not buying it either. I WANT SUN!!!!!!

I swear I'm going to develop rickets from a lack of vitamin D. If you see me start to hunch over, you'll know why. :)

My son only has another 7 days of kindergarten (well - 7 days plus 2 hours but who's counting?). I'm not at all sure how that happened. It feels like I was just leaving him on that first day - the tears that fell from him broke my heart that day. I wish I could say that school turned out to be a great experience for both him and me but honestly, it hasn't so much been. He has learned tons of new things, don't get me wrong but thrive? No, he didn't so much thrive. He endured. He got through. He is above grade level in everything and I know he has learned what he should but he was never thrilled about going, he never looked forward to it. He went without too much complaint but he was always happiest on the days when there was no school.

His school was ok. And I do mean just "ok". We've filed the papers to see if we can get a boundary exception to another school. All the fears I held from the open house forward were right on even though "others" said I was out of my mind. That one plus one couldn't possibly equal two. Well guess what? I was so right on that I could kick myself for not following my gut instinct to transfer him that very first week.

Lesson learned though - I will never again just assume that all schools in a district are equal. I will never again assume that just because it's your neighborhood school that your child should attend said school. I will do more research. I won't blindly trust again. I never should have but being new to the whole "my child is in school" thing I had no idea what to do, look for or act upon. It's very much like leaving the hospital with a newborn...you have *no idea* what is ahead of you. None. At all.

Oy. That was a lot to just dump out there. Who knows - maybe I'll be back before July arrives. Wouldn't that be nice? :) :) Thanks for sticking with me.